Sadness and freedom [OPEN]

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The small ginger she cat sat on her own by the rivers edge. She watched her reflection swim in the water. Cold traces of tears streamed down her face. It would be a rough leaf-bare for her, when she had left she was an apprentice and when she left she changed her name. Yes this once Windclan apprentice was know as Cinderpaw back then but changed her name to Mika in the proses. She knew how to hunt and would have become a warrior even sooner but Moonspirit had put her on suicide watch.

It had been because of her life. Greypool ended liking her and Smallpaw but in the end chose Smallpaw. She then in the end made her escape and was now a loner, her heart told her to leave, her parents were dead and Greypool chose Smallpaw and she would not stop there love for each other. She then told herself to live in the present and don't base her life on one thing that happened. Maybe they would meet but she highly doubt it. Today it had been really cold and she had already made herself a den nearby and started to head for it for the winds were picking up.

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Does That Make Me

Kiki, seeing that she came around these parts so often, had made her home high above in one of the willows that casted their shadows over the river. She relished the cool of the shadows, and how when the wind was strong enough would blow across her fur softly. The crook of the tree where she nested was now covered with moss, bird feathers and horsetail, and in the truck was a hollow where an owl once lived. Once. The loner licked her lips happily, remembering the taste and how the fat bird hadn't been expecting anything in the broad daylight. Now it's den was her stash of kill. A squirrel and two mice took up most of the room in there, which she was saving for later.

Then, far below, her yellow eyes noticed a small shape of a cat near the riverbank. She blinked sleepily. Yes, it was defanately a cat. And WindClan by the smell of her. Quietly, the black she-cat leapt down from her perch and crept over to the she-cat, padding close enough to see her own reflection hovering above hers. "Well, well, what's a little apprentice like you doing so far from her camp?" she asked sweetly.

Crazy?

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Mika turned to her "I am no longer an apprentice I am a loner now I have no friends, I am Mika its a weird story to how I became who I am today but you can't live in the past right? who are you?" she asked curious and trying to stay away from the past. This loner seemed friendly enough not to have to run away from.

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I'm In The Business Of

The loner raised a brow. "Really? An apprentice gone rouge? Never heard of that one before." She sat down and gave a quick licks to groom her brown chest. "The name's Kiki. I live up in that willow. But I'm a big, strong cat. Aren't you a bit young to be on your own?" she asked, as if speaking to a kit who didn't know any better.

Misery

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She looked up to th willow that must provide good protection she thought then turned to Kiki "No I was about to become a warrior any day now but then I go put under a suicide watch... " she mewed looking down at her paws then up again. "If I hadn't I would have become a warrior at the next meeting but I think I will do better on my own I know how to hunt and fight so I don't think it would be that bad." she mewed trying to look on the brighter side "What do you think of life as a loner?" she asked.

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Nothing Could Be Worse
Kiki smiled darkly. "Suicide watch? How interesting." The she-cat rolled her shoulder before laying down to rest on her belly, her chin resting on crossed paws. "As for loner life... I hope you can adjust to being alone." She chuckled at her own little joke. "The only difference from being in a Clan is that there are no rules. No cat, nor your great an powerful StarClan-" she said the word with great mockingly dramatic stress- "tell you what you can or can't do. There's no consiquence, no trouble if you don't want any. No constant fighting unless you want it. Trust me, that livens loner life up life. Blood."

All These Imaginary Friends

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"I think I could handle loneliness I had that in camp... unless I can make some friends out here" she mewed hoping that she could. It might just suite her life style to live as a loner with one or two friends. "I do like the fact of what I catch I can eat " she laughed slightly she liked having someone to talk to. Hmm maybe they could become friends? She liked the thought of it being possible.

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This Is Halloween

Kiki rolled her eyes. "You're thinking like a Clan cat, still! Too small scale." She shook her head. "I'm talking about being able to do anything you want! Talk back to anyone, go anywhere, and kill any cat that gets in your way." Her eyes gleamed as she spoke. "Clan cats are cowards. They think if they do the tiniest thing wrong, they'll end up bringing on a curse. Such dramatic little kits."

Everybody Make A Scene

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"I do like all of those facts and mainly not getting punished for what I do" she mewed thinking of all the possibilities that could happen. She didn't even have to choose a mate from her own clan! "Your and ok cat kiki, um do you think we could be friends?" she mewed curious to know her answer.

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We've Never Been So Many

Kiki raised a brow. "Friends?" she echoed, almost not understanding. She didn't have friends. She had acquaintances that she always managed to tick off, or, if she was lucky, fight. She was better with claws and fangs than words and feelings, and for a moment just stayed there motionless. Then at last she shrugged, knowing that was probably her best answer. "Sure, I don't see why not."

And We've Never Been So Alone

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Mika smiled "Great!" she mewed happy she finally had a friend! She had wanted a friend for so long that she forgot how to be happy from time to time but now she had someone she could hang around with when board maybe even learn a few fighting tricks from.

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What's This?

She flicked her tail in response, a small smile on her face. The loner didn't really understand what the whole 'friendship' thing implied, but she thought she could handle it for now. "Well, if we're friends now, would you mind explaining to me this whole story? The leaving your Clan, I mean. I tend to get bored easily, you see."

What's This?

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"Sure..It all started..well I guess I really don't know when it started but it was around the time I started to like Greypaw but he's now called Greypool..his 'friend' and who I thought to be my friend Smallpaw loved each other but I didn't know and I liked him too. And see I felt bad because she would always give me these evil looks and such then eventually I jumped in the creek but so did smallpaw...see I didn't want to get in the way of there love so ya.. and I got saved by a weird white creature and before I knew it it was gone. I thought I would die that night so I told Greypaw my true feelings for him..but of course I lived..He then told me he loved me to afterwards and Smallpaw was in a coma but then it all got confusing..and I tried to kill myself once more with deathberries and got put on a suicide watch..so when they said only Greypaws voice could wake Smallaw up I cried as I ran here..." she explained she was kinda happy to get the pressure of her chest by telling someone.

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Hello, I'm Your Mind

Her yellow eyes blinked. "'Too much going on in a life so young.' I believe that was something my mother once told me. Listen, here. I'm probably the last she-cat in the world to know anything about tomcats, but I can say that you're better off without this Greypool. You can't go from loving one cat yesterday to loving another the next. And in any case, you sound like you're a lot better off without that Smallpaw cat, too. She sounds like a real piece of mouse dung." Kiki tilted her head to the side, quizzically "What do you think?".

Giving You Someone To Talk To

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"i think your right and I don't know what I would do if I ever saw them again" she mewed looking to her paws and up again.