hello again, sweet cheeks

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Sunlight was a bit confused on how she should feel now. Seeing RainWing again just blew her away. She felt angry. Frustrated. She couldn’t believe how she acted towards him… She never felt anger before. She never experienced it, nor did she ever show it. She could feel the other cats surprise when it happened, too… And it seemed as if ThunderPelt was confused, scared, and shocked… He wanted to run away. She felt like a monster now..

So, she decided to take a walk. A stroll. To clear her head. She needed her head cleared, and it seemed like a walk across the snow would be nice… No matter how cold it was. She didn’t care, and it still felt like it would be a lovely time to go out for a stroll, just to at least clear her head. Usually it helps her at least, because the cold air sends chill down her spine and ears, which signals her memory. Haha, not really, but it still helps. It gets her mind off of things, and gets it set onto one particular thing.

The thing she didn’t expect was to see the river soon coming up to view. Where she used to meet RainWing. Was Starclan trying to send her a message? That maybe she was supposed to talk to him again? Sunlight didn’t believe it. That would bring chaos, wouldn’t it?

She placed her white paw against the ice, and immediately slid down, her chin landing against the ice. She groaned, and sighed, not moving up at all. Not one bit. She didn’t want to, nor did she care… She would get up sooner or later, and she knew that. She just didn’t want to get up right now, because it would be too much trouble and it would make her think on different matters. Her mind works in odd ways…

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Seems no matter how Starclan said they needed to be apart, these two cats always seemed to run back into each other. Accidentally or not.

Rainwing himself had been out gathering herbs, letting Featherpaw watch over Icepaw for a bit while he got some time to himself. That was the one thing you never got when you were medicine cat: Alone time. You couldn't have a family or a mate but...you were never alone. He was just about to head back when he found himself at the river. Where he and Sunlight, then Sunpaw, used to meet. He found himself lost in memories as he also found himself slipping on some ice and going sprawling. Oh great... He tried to stop himself but it was no use. And, to a strange coincidence, he found himself nose to nose with Sunlight.

"Uh...hi there."

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Sunlight just laid there, trying to keep her thoughts together. She tried to erase those memories of him; they don’t mean a d**n thing no more! Yet, her mind still swirled around them, and kept her wondering… what would of happened if they were still together? What would of happened if they were mates? What would of happened if cats found out?

She clenched her eyelids down shut, trying to ignore them all. Yet, they kept coming.

Her thoughts were interrupted when she felt a light bump on the nose. SunLight blinked her eyes open and looked at that familiar lovely face… Rainwing…

“No!” she suddenly screeched, jumping up, only to have her paw slip on the ice and make her land on him, “Not again! No!”

She seemed to be having a fit. She just didn’t want to accept him. SunLight didn’t want to see him. Sunlight didn’t want a thing from him!

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So Rainwing knew she wasn't happy with him, he didn't blame her. But he truly didn't expect this reaction.

His eyes widened at her screech, ears flattening in confusion but his expression quickly changed as he felt his breath knocked out of him when she landed back on him. It was difficult to move or even stand on the ice, but with her on top of him, he couldn't get up at all. He was kinda trapped under her, trying to catch his breath.

"N-nice to see you too Sunlight..."

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"No, it's not nice to see you!" she just laid on him and didn't move. She knew that if she tried, she would keep falling over. "I hate you now! You ugh! What are you doing here?!"

Her whole body started to shake, and she wasn't sure how to really react. She was too upset, too angry, too everything! Tears started to pool from her eyes and drip down her face, soon landing on RainWing's pelt.

"I... I can't take this RainWing! You left me, you... you... never came back! And now, when i'm hurt, torn, and possibly with someone else, you return? What good does that make you?"

She slowly tried to get up, slippng, but she soon caught her balance, "Tell me RainWing..."

Her body still shook and tears still started to drip down her face while her tail went between her legs. She was so... so... hurt? Yeah... I think that's the word.

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Rainwing tried to hide the blow that her words caused him. She really did hate him...not to say he didn't blame her. He had been a mousebrain, not of purpose of course, but still a mousebrain. He decided to try to keep this calm and not cause anymore strife between them, starting to answer her rapid question. "Well I was gathering he-?" He cut himself off as he felt water on his felt and he knew it wasn't raining.

She was crying?

Now he felt even worse than he already did, which was pretty bad. He frowned, not saying anything for a bit and let her continue. He listened to what she had to say like every word was a sting, but the sharpest sting was the 'possibly with someone else part, but he could understand that as well. He slowly rose to his paws after her, still looking at his paws.

"I didn't mean to go anywhere Sunlight. We knew from the start how hard this was going to be, because I can't be a warrior...because we're in different clans. I fought against that destiny as long as I could when I was younger, but it soon started to catch up on me. And that in itself took me away from you...I didn't mean to leave you, nor did I want to. I've been thinking about you though...I just end up meeting you again, I haven't tried because I thought you were over me. But I guess since your like this now.....you still have some of those feelings?" He asked finally, looking up at her.

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The golden-looking she-cat had too many emotions building up inside her. She wanted to scream to the world on how she felt, how hurt. She didnt' think anything could help at all. She felt like she would soon die. And everything he was saying was hard to believe. She didn't really believe a word of it.

"Then.. Then... RUN AWAY WITH ME!" she screeched, tears still pooling down her face. She wanted to be with HIM, but she didn't want to run away, but... she wanted to be with him. But what about ThunderPelt? He would be hurt and she was starting to love him, too....

Ugh... WHY ME?

Sunlight's legs suddenly collapsed beneath her, which sent her falling down on the ice. Her chin slammed against the ground, making her bite her own tongue. She let out a squeal, but started to whine. Not because of her tongue, but because of how badly hurt she was. Emotionally. She didn't want to admit it, but... she felt like she was dying. She really did.

"Why.... Why.... Why me?" she murmured to herself, covering her eyes with both of her front paws while she slowly started to whine and whimper.

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Rainwing's eyes widened in surprise at this and he dropped down to help her up. "Sunlight...Sunlight listen to me..." He said quietly, trying to calm her down. This was making him feel worse...the one thing he didn't know how to fix was a broken heart. And he was the one who broke it. "Sunlight, I am sorry..."

"Maybe you should...just forget about me. I will stay out of your way and you can be with Thunderpelt...then you can have a normal life. No no more problems or anything. How about that?"

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Listen to him... He is speaking the truth. You could walk away from this!

She slowly rose her head up, and felt like she was hallucinating. She saw a figure sitting down right behind RainWing. It looked identical to her mother... what was she saying again?

"SunLight, listen! Walk away from this tom. He's causing troubles." she seemed to whisper, the wind blowing right in her ears. Was she hallucinating, or was that really her mother? SunLight didn't know, but she had to reply back.

"No! I love him! Even if he does go... I wouldn't be able to forget!" she shouted, her fur bristling with anger, "I can't walk away from this! Don't lie to me!"

"Don't give me that tone, young lady! You can walk way from this. He is from a different clan, AND he is a Medicine Cat! I would never think that..."

SunLight shook her head side to side furiously. She wouldn't listen. No. Her mother was wrong. So very wrong, "I don't care... I don't care..."

The she-cat seemed to ignore what RainWing was saying, slowly getting up on all fours. She felt like she was going to fall, but she kept herself up. She looked at her 'mother', and hissed, "No! I love him, and I'm not letting him go! I'm not letting anyone go!... Why did you have to go...?"

Of course, this whole time, RainWing couldn't hear anything that her 'mother' was saying. SunLight was actually imagining things. She was fighting with her... 'subconcious.' but she didn't know this. Not one bit. So, since of this, RainWing probably would think that she was yelling at HIM, not her 'mother.'

"...As you wish. But don't blame me, blame yourself!" the presence of her 'mother' hissed, her lovely golden pelt ripping up in shreds, being replaced by orange and black fur. Her form seemed to grow larger, her fangs and claws getting larger as well. Next thing Sunlight knew, the large... creature was leaping at her, paws outstretched and fnags ready for the kill.

"No!" Sunlight screamed, shutting her eyes tightly. She was waiting for the impact of the large animal, but when she opened her eyes, she saw nothing. Blackness. This lasted a few minutes before she blinked and saw the real world again. What just happened? She didn't know. (I'll explain something in a second).

Sunlight looked at RainWing and nuzzled her face in his neck-fur, "No... Don't leave... No..."

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((She was aruging with nothing. Basically herself. The tiger, attacked her, because she went with something that she will later regret. Because, I was thinking that later SunLight has RainWing's kits, but ThunderPelt thinks it's his, because they kinda resemble him(some of them) because fo the fur color, and soon they find ou-- wait didn't I discuss this with you...? Yeah... but I mean, I wanna set it in place. XDDD;)

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Rainwing really didn't know how to react to this. Not really... He blinked, just standing with his mouth agape as she went off and off again. He didn't know what to say to what she was saying, he could tell she wasn't talking to him but about him...to someone else? He looked around, but didn't see anyone but just the two of them. She must be on a emotional high and all...

He blinked in surprise at the end when she nuzzled his neck and told him to stay. She...she wanted him...to stay. He closed his eyes, taking in her scent with deep breaths. He did love her, he did. He only said that stuff to make it easier for her. But if she needed him....he wouldn't say no.

"Alright....I won't go anywhere."

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SunLight whined quietly to herself. She wasn't sure what else to do. She didn't want RainWing to leave; she's had too many close cats leave her with death, misery, and just... running away.

She wanted her mother back. She wanted her sister back (I can't remember if she had one.. Ig otta look for that bio again...). She wanted her family back together in place. She sniffled, burying her face in his neck fur even more, wishing that everything could go away.

She didn't want this to end. She didn't want their relationship to end. But, the thing is... she wanted Thunderpelt here as well. She wanted everyone here... She wanted... everything.

SunLight let out sniffle, hearing his words. She knew they were lies, but she wanted to believe him. He will leave sometime; she knew that... But did he? He should know; he's the one that said it!

She took a few steps away from RainWing and just stared at him. Her eyes were filled with worry, desperation, and... just... sadness, anguish... Too many things were running through her head and too many things have hurt her terribly.

"R...Rainwing..." she softly murmured, tears slowly slipping out of her large iris' slowly dripping down her fluffy yellow cheeks.

Why was she crying? Because she knew that one of the most important cats... will leave her. He may not know this, he may not realize this, but he will. Both of them can't stay there forever...

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Ooc: Dx back sorry.

Rainwing felt terrible and really didn't know how he could fix this. He watched her cry, he saw how upset she was and his heart hurt. He had never meant to hurt her like this...he hadn't even realized how bad he had hurt her. "Sunlight, I am so sorry for leaving you for so long. I will do anything to make it right..." He said softly, looking at her with refret filled eyes, wishing he could stop her from crying. He took a few steps forward and rubbed his cheek against hers, feeling her tears on his pelt.

Ooc: Sorry its short...Dx